Dear Diary,

I’m so angry

 just want to call her and be like

Lady I wanted to give you the benefit of doubt and believe you might actually be a decent human being.

That just maybe you had no idea that our family and home and our lives just completely blew up. That perhaps you were also being deceived.

Cause ya know what all id love for xmas is to find out about the other woman. And then as if that’s not exciting enough, to be told you’re crazy and there’s no woman named Stacey. where are you hearing this?

And the kicker…. His step son saying mom, if lm better maybe that can fix it

Just what every mom wants to hear. Their child believing that it’s their fault his entire world just blew up.”

And while yes the last 2 weeks has been a devastating out of the blue nightmare I can’t wake up from; todays tears are from my own guilt – cause in realizing you’re very much an active participant in is so disappointing, it has me feeling so out of character I’m thinking how glad your daughters lost their father and I hope they hurt everyday. And Just knowing your lack of integrity is causing me to turn into someone like you, that breaks my heart even more than his betrayal has.